Dear Rick, Mike, Norma, Andy and Friends and Family:

I am sorry for the pain and sorrow my lifestyle has inflicted upon you. I never wanted Sara or anybody to die or get hurt.

I am a weak person and cannot stand the pain and sorrow any longer. So I want to end it.

Last night I was asked "how could you work with anyone who could do this" — and I had no answer.

Please make sure my little Mike and Rick are taken care of. I love them so much. So did little Sara.

Andy and Mother Norma are the only 2 people who stood by my side to the very end. Without them I would have died a long time ago.

I took the lie detector test only because I knew that I was innocent. Ever since I took it I wanted to die. There is just too much pain for me, even though I passed.

Yesterday little Ricky ask me who was the best person in Moms family—I hesitated and he said Joni. I want Joni to take care of Rick & Mike. I want Andy to take care of my money for the education of all Tokars and Amibrisko children.

Please make sure all children have a chance to go to college. I want Andy to replace me as trustee for my mother because he is so strong and honest. He will be very good at that.

I ask that all of my and Sara's money go to a college fund for the Tokars-Ambrisko Wilox kids. I also want to keep our house in Canada as its my real beginning. Mike, Rick, Sara, and the Wiloxes love it. Please try to keep it for them as there is nothing like it left.

Please call Bob Brenner and tell him that I love him and have always admired him.

Whale and Neal and Oakie were also the best friends in the world. I'm sorry for not spending enough time with them. I just worked to hard.

Sara really loved X-Mas — so do what you need to do to make everyone happy. She really was very special to me — Sar won't ever know.

I know your loss was bad, but mine was really worse. Every day I felt like I was going to die without her. She was always great w/ everybody.

The real pain comes from trying to help ??? the miserable defend myself. There are people all over Atlanta you know and love me. They know I would never hurt anybody.

I really had it made and I can't explain to you how hard it was to lose everything in 1 day. Mike and Rick have been sheltered from the press so far. Let them see everything and draw their own conclusions. They will see I could never hurt Sara or anyone else. The Press killed me.

Please explain to my friends my weakness and let them know what happened. I can't live w/ all this pressure. I'm sorry for all the pain and suffering that I have caused everyone.

But I loved Sara, never hurt her, and I have now died for her.

I love you Sara, Rick, Mike.

The Press have made me feel like a suspect. I shouldn't be. The torture has weakened me to the point where I can't take it anymore. I want to die.

I'm very sad. Please help my children, Norma, Andy, and my family.