Today is not a joyous day. It is just another sad reminder of WHOM we have lost, our Laci and Conner; a reminder of WHAT we have lost, a huge part of our family, and, our lives, as we once knew them.

There are no winners in a case like this one. We are families who are suffering horrendous losses.

People tell me "Now, you can have some closure." There is no closure. We are only turning the page and beginning the next chapter in our book of life. There will always be a hole in my heart for Laci and Conner. Closure will only occur for me when I complete my book of life, when I die.

It's been a long and painful two years and I'm not sure how we would have made it through without the help and support of so many people. We would like to thank all the volunteers who worked at the volunteer center as well as those who helped search for Laci; the total strangers from all over the world who sent cards, letter and e-mails with prayers and words of encouragement; the media who helped keep Laci in the minds of so many; the wonderful people of Redwood City who have been so gracious and opened their hearts to us.

I especially want to thank our family and friends. Had you not been there for us, offering your love and support and helping us every step of the way, I don't think I would be standing here today.

We are fortunate to have had Judge Delucchi preside over this case. His knowledge of the law and sense of fairness kept the trial on track. We are grateful for the members of the jury who were able to hang in there for the past 6 1/2 months. They weighed the evidence and had to make, what I can only assume to be, the most difficult decisions of their lives.

I want to thank all the law enforcements agencies involved in the search and recovery of Laci and Conner.

And, above all, I want to offer a very, very special thank you to the Modesto Police Department, the Stanislaus County District Attorney's and Sheriff's Offices. YOU NEVER GAVE UP. Your commitment and dedication and the many long hours you have worked on this case have not gone unnoticed. You deserve your due recognition. YOU are the very best and I am forever indebted to you. You will always have a special place in my heart. Thank you!!